Friday, January 13, 2012

Hi Ho, Hi Ho- It's Back to Work I Go!

The time has come for me to rejoin the workforce!  Monday will be my first day back.  The past 3 months have flown by in some ways, but in other ways it seems like so long ago that I was in labor.  Weird.  We've come a long way in these 3 months.  Anniston is sleeping so much better, her gas is almost completely gone, and I myself finally feel like I know what I'm doing!  I cannot imagine having to go back to work at 6 weeks.  I'm so glad I took a long maternity leave but I am ready to return to my career.

After deciding in high school that I wanted to be a pharmacist, I spent 8 long years in school (post high school) in order to get my Doctorate of Pharmacy.  My job is very important to me.  I love my patients, my store, the people I work with- and I miss it all.  I'm ready to have more structure in my life and to feel productive during the day.  I miss socializing with grown-ups and just getting out of the house!

That being said, I still have reservations about returning.  I'm used to seeing my little girl all day every day.  I know everything that goes on in her life and the moment she does something new.  It's going to be hard to see her less everyday and to depend on her caregiver to provide me with information about what she does during the day.  That's going to be tough.  In addition to that, Brandon has a job that requires him to travel.  A lot.  There will be many weeks that I will be a single, full-time working mom.  I know there are many moms that do this and my hat goes off to them.  It is going to be quite an adjustment, but I feel I can do it and still keep my sanity:)  Ha ha.

This is going to be a big change for us as a family and I can only pray and have faith that it will all work out.  As much as it breaks my heart to think about how much less time I will be spending with Anniston, I know this is the right decision for me at this point in time.  I'm really ready for us to fall into a routine- her with daycare, me with work, and all of us as a family at night.  I like that sort of structure to my life.

I know it will all work out and that I have to be patient- the first couple of weeks are going to be hard.  But I'm really going to try to be on top of things and well organized- hopefully that will make it easier!  I will post an update in a couple of weeks.  Wish me luck!!




5 comments:

  1. Did you decide to take to her Kristi's house for babysitting?

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    1. Yes! And I love her. I took her for a couple of hours 3 days this week so we could all start getting adjusted. Kristi has been fantastic!!

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  2. Going back is an adjustment. You will definitely have your moments where you are sad to leave BUT you will almost have this amazing excitment when you are on your way to pick her up. Brody has loved being able to play with other babies too. Just remember you are NOT a bad mom for going back to work...everyone must do what is best for their life.

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  3. I'll be praying that you can have a sense of peace about returning to work. It was the HARDEST thing for me!!

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